Saturday, 3 May 2025

How my feelings were hurt several times by a girl I had classed as a friend

 This will be quite a long post. Just thought I'd prepare you for a lengthy read. I am based in Luton, UK. I had lived in the USA for over 16 years as a green card resident. I moved back to the UK in February of 2006. I met a girl I thought was nice quite recently. I say thought was nice as I have my doubts now on whether my initial opinion about her is accurate or not. She may well be nice to others but she has hurt my feelings on several occasions. I am a sensitive person. It 's probably due to the fact that I am a highly creative guy. This post might bounce between topics but it serves a purpose. These topics are connected to each other.


I will give this girl the nickname of Tor. I came up with a creative idea for a DIY cocktail therapy club. Google gemini took some of the ideas I had given them in this regard and they came up with the name, Stirred and Shared. I went with that name as it describes what this club is about. It's to do with sharing cocktail drinks and sharing our thoughts and feelings via talking while we are drinking. In the photo above, you'll see one of the drinks I add into my cocktail drinks. Last summer I began talking to a local window cleaner for the shops in my area. I'll give him the nickname of Player. I had asked Player if he would like to try some of my Dooley's toffee liqueur. I didn't have my DIY cocktail club idea in place at that time. I gave Player some of the straight Dooley's toffee liqueur. Player liked the drink. He was one of the first people to have tried my drinks. Player knows Tor quite well. Player said he's known Tor for over 2 years. They must be pretty close as I have seen Tor sharing Player's joint straight from his mouth. I have seen this happening several times now. I can tell you that this has ticked me off.

I told Tor a few weeks ago that I was thinking about creating a nickname for myself. I was going along the lines of An or Angel. In one of our stirred and shared sessions, Tor had a funny look on her face as she told Player about the aforementioned nickname choices. Player laughed at those names. I didn't like this as I felt that Tor was making fun of me and trying to bully me in some way. During this session, Tor shared another joint straight from Player's mouth yet again. Tor spoke with Player more than me, during this session. I felt like I was being used for my drinks and not appreciated. I have recently added Angel to my name as a new middle name. I did this via deep poll. If Tor and Player don't like my new middle name choice, I really don't care as their opinions don't count for too much at this present moment in time. I was giving these drinks away for free. Yet it costs me money to buy the drinks and to buy the other cocktail ingredients as well.

I was upset at how I'd been treated. I made a video where I demonstrated one of my baton techniques against a martial arts striking shield. I did this exercise as a way to release my pent up anger against Tor and Player. I found out last week, through Player, that Tor had shown him the baton video and that she was afraid of me. I'd spotted Tor walking across the street from me last Tuesday evening. I was coming home from a pro bono consulting session at a store on Chapel street, Luton. I noticed that Tor saw me. She then decided to turn around and walk in the opposite direction. This too, deeply hurt me. I would never hurt Tor in any way. I had asked Tor about this incident while we spoke today. She said she didn't remember this happening. I know she's lying about this. I have worked in the security industry back when I had lived in America. I can tell when one is lying. It doesn't take rocket science to figure this out. She had obviously shown Player this baton video out of the fear she had of me possibly attacking her.

I'd like to be friends with Tor but I won't beg her for this honor.  I will now be storing some of my DIY cocktail drinks at the Continental food store on Chapel street, Luton. I will still give the drink samples for free at this store. However, I would ask that the drinks samplers at least buy something from the shop. I want to help the store owner as she is a good lady. Tor lives quite close to this shop. I have asked her to stop by there whenever she wants. Hopefully it will be when I am there doing my pro bono consulting. If she does this, I'd buy her some tasty Italian coffee. 

Here's my Youtube video where I talk about the baton video.

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/4q1DEtzsp_8

Tor had also ticked me off a bit in regards to a conversation of ours where I talked about modelling. Here's a link my Youtube video on this topic.

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/kvoeawxBF7o


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How my feelings were hurt several times by a girl I had classed as a friend

 This will be quite a long post. Just thought I'd prepare you for a lengthy read. I am based in Luton, UK. I had lived in the USA for ov...